On (not) giving up

I had a tough day today. I was a bit wobbly and a bit hungry when I toddled off down the hill at lunchtime, to see my osteopath about a sore bit on the long-ago-injured foot.

Unfortunately for him, he asked politely how I was doing and just at that moment I couldn’t quite keep the tears in. Up until that point, no matter how much he has hurt me in the course of treatment, I have managed not to cry. It was almost a matter of pride that I never cried no matter how painful it was. He knows to keep talking if he is working particularly hard on an area, and I know not to try and reply but just to keep breathing.

The afternoon got even worse.

At the end of the day I left, and sniffled all the way to the bus station, having repeated “I don’t know” and “I haven’t finished that yet” like a broken record for the best part of half an hour.

All the bad things came, the chimpiest of chimps put on his really nasty hat, shrieked some really nasty things at me, and I wondered how on earth I was going to shake all this off and get some decent practice done tonight.

But just now I popped over to one of my favourite websites and found this – What If You Didn’t Give Up? – as though it was meant just for me to find, right now.

And then I remembered a quote a friend had shared with me a few years ago.

Courage doesn’t always roar.

sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says,

“i will try again tomorrow”

mary-anne radmacher

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2 thoughts on “On (not) giving up

  1. Ah! My most favourite quote indeed.
    On my workshop this weekend Marianne Keyes was asked why she always finished her book with happy endings. Her reply was this
    “I was always searching for that dream of being happy all of the time, that perfect life. I thought I was doing everything wrong and then I realised: life is full of feckin ups and feckin downs FOREVER we all have our happy endings even if they are only temporary. I want to grab them tight and put them in a box” your last post and then this one seem to sum that up. Today was just a “feckin down”

    1. It was indeed. New day tomorrow though, and I’ve managed some really productive practice now so feel like I haven’t wasted my day after all.

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